Beetle Bugs

I am so ready for a vacation and I am getting one!! HAHA!! This place called Sandy Cove does a one time deal that when your spouse gets home from a deployment then you get 5 nights free. All you have to do is get up there and get home which is only a 8 hour drive for us. It is a camping ground where we will stay in a cabin...I think....or a room. Anyways it has beds so I am assuming we are in a shelter. They have all kinds of activities for families and kid stuff. All of our food is provided. I am so excited. We cannot afford to go to Colorado so we are going to do this instead. It will be so much fun to just go away and be a family for a couple days. We have not had a chance to just do that. I think the kids will have a lot of fun too. Only part that sounds not so fun is the car ride. So the countdown is on. July is going to be a crazy month which will be great because then it will go just that much faster. So yeah that is it for now!! I CANNOT WAIT FOR DOUG T FINALLY GET HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bum!

That is what I am going to be today!! BUM! So as you see our house is looking AWESOME!! I am so happy with how our front yard is turning out!! So a couple things. My brother got a role in Les Mirasawhatever...I do not know how to say it. It is not a lead role but it is a big part and it is with one of the best theaters...so people tell me. I am seriously out of touch with that stuff so I have no idea. I just know that he had been waiting to find out and when he got it everybody was really excited so must be good:) My other brother opened his show Evita last night. I told him to break a leg. That is what they say right? If we go out in August then I will definitely go see them.


Taylor finished her dance camp this week. She loved it and had a blast. I can't wait until the next one!! I thought that I would be lost and not know what to do with 2 free hours but surprisingly I was in a rush to go pick her up everyday since I had been busy. She keeps showing me all her dances which has been funny. I just cannot believe how big she is getting. I heard her get up and go to the bathroom last night and then get back in bed and I thought wow is my child seriously old enough to go potty by herself at night. I just cannot believe how incredibly blessed we are.


Brecken stopped crying when I try to put him down at night but he still screams through most of his naptime. I make him sit up there for 2 hours and he can scream or sleep. He is still picking screaming. He will be 6 months soon which is crazy!! I am starting to look at myself as a mom more than a young girl with a baby. It is really weird to think "my kids". Kind of makes me feel old:) It is going to be really weird when we get pregnant for the 3rd time. I had people ask me if Brecken was my first when I did not have Taylor around and I think it will be funny when people ask me that again with the 3rd and I say no this is number 3. I thought 22 was old to start having kids but now I see that it is actually very young. Especially when I see my friends having kids at the same age...they seem so young. Which is funny because all the guys are a couple years older then Doug was when we had Taylor. That is what he gets for marrying someone the same age as him. Just so weird to be in this stage of life. I love it. Anyways I am kind of just thinking out loud here.


Doug will be home soon and I am so ready. We were thinking of coming out to Colorado but we are not positive if that is going to work out. Taylor starts school around that time and we really do not have anyone to watch the dogs since everybody will be taking block leave at the same time who is getting back. Plus the money thing. Plane tickets are pretty expensive. Especially when you are buying 3. We still might have to get the Jeep fixed. Doug and I also start school around that time. It does not matter to me as long as he is home I do not care where we are. I just want to get back to being a family. Well that is it for now. I am going to go watch Tigger and Pooh.

Magic Markers:)

Hey so today my best friend Annie turns 26!! Pray for her becuase today her and her husband are taking their little boy in to see when and how his surgery is going to be done. He will be one in August:) I could not imagine having to do what she is doing. Also pray for my BFF forever Jenna. She had her son a week and a half ago by a very rough c-section and she is starting to feel the emotional hurt that goes with it. If you have had a c-section you know what I am talking about. That one thing your body and you as a woman were meant to do but could not. Keep her whole family in your prayers. Being a military family is rough in more ways then one:)

Another Sunday

Well today is going to be another bum day. Brecken and Taylor are both coughing now. I wish this sick thing would go away. I am just happy I have not caught it yet. I am completely exhausted. I am so tired that I am constantly dizzy. I am also not eating as much as I should be because I just do not have time. I think this is the most exhausted I have ever been in my life. I even fell asleep reaching across the desk for a pen. I slept with me face smooshed to the calender for like 30 minutes and woke up kind of laughing at myself. I was never this bad with any of the kids before or this tired during the last deployment. I wish Doug was here to help. I feel like if I could just get a really good sleep....like the kind when someone else is watching the kids and you do not have to be half awake listening for them...then I would be okay. I guess the good news is that I am so tired that all the lightheadedness and dizziness makes me feel high...lol. Only a couple more weeks. Taylor started dance. We had a few hitches but I think she is going to like it. We were finally able to mow our lawn and it looks great!! I am so excited. I put ant killer down yesterday so hopefully that gets rid of them. Taylor has dance camp all week so that should make time go fast. I went to the military wives group yesterday and that was really fun. I saw a lot of girls I had not seen in a while. I saw my friends twins. Poor girl:) She has a son Taylors age and had twin girls 2 weeks before I had Brecken and her husband is also deployed. Now she has to be tired. It was nice to talk to someone who was going through the same thing and have that encouragement:) I think I am going to try and find a mentor through church who is a little older and had more kids so they can help guide me in what to expect. After having 2 kids you start to figure out that you do need that guidance. I really needed that group yesterday. I just need my other half home. Well I am going to go sit on the couch and fade in and out of consciousness.

Sunday sunday sunday

Oh I cannot wait for football to start again! Anyways today we sat around. I have this pressure in my head I cannot seem to get rid of. I was going to take some Sudafed or something but I am already down to twice a day with Brecken and do not want to dry out too much. Taylor has been making my laugh all day. I made lunch which turned out horrible (and it wasn't me. It was one of those Homestyle Bakes and it was nasty!!) and she ate a little bit, made a face like she thought it tasted gross which it did and kept eating it and told me it was yummy and thank you for making her lunch. Oh that girl is way to good to be my daughter. I almost broke into tears. I love those kids so much:) I am making her some cookies right now to make up for it. Hopefully they taste better:) Brecken has been sleeping and eating. He is going through another growth spurt. I put on a 6 month onesie and pajamas and he is too tall and too thick for them. Taylor was always just too tall. So we are up to 9 month outfits now. I took Taylor to the doctor and she is all healthy. She is in the 75% for her height and her weight. We will see in a month with Brecken when he is 6 months. My babies are growing. I finally quit swaddling Brecken and decided to let him cry it out at night until he fell asleep. He figured out that I wasn't coming in after 3 nights and now he goes right to sleep when I put him down. It is a relief to know we are through that hurdle. I have been reading those Twilight books. I know everybody thinks they are all dumb but they are really good. I read the 1st one in 2 days and the second one in 1 day. I am actually enjoying reading since it gets me away from watching TV at night while the kids are in bed. I think more when I read. So yeah I am just sitting and waiting for this wait to be over with Doug getting home. I feel like the last couple weeks I have been having to tell myself to put one foot in front of the other more than I had too before. I am trying not to lose myself in this huge hurricane I feel like I am in the middle of. I just feel like I am not really here mentally lately which I am afraid Taylor might start catching on too. Hopefully I snap out of this when we are back into our stuff this month. Other than that I am just trying to try. Well I am going to go pull those cookies out:)

Well at least it is June:)

Only about 2 more months. So Jenna had Jax!! Yay!! After a huge drama and let me say that I will never deliver at Womack again. I will stick with Cape Fear. Anyways after hearing what all happened it was affecting me a little more then I thought it should. It was really weird. Then I remembered Courtney and realized why. Losing Courtney was the worst emotional pain I had ever been in and as horrible as it sounds it was worse then our miscarriage although that ranked right below it. So now I realize why it hit me harder then I had thought it should. Thank God they are both okay so no worries. I miss Doug more than anything right now. I need someone to talk to and he is the someone I need right now. Soon. The kids are doing great. Taylor starts dance on tuesday. We also start our mommies group up again and we are going 2 days a week. It is going to be busy which is great. Time will go faster. Anyways that is all that is really going on. I am going to go read:)