Loving the grass!!

YESS!! Our house is looking good!! So we did not do a whole lot this week which was a very nice break. I have been tired and wanting to just sit. Besides I really have only one more week of sitting left. Taylor starts dance in a week. I am pretty excited:) I need these next 10 weeks to fly by!! I am reading a good book called "The Shack". Read it if you have time. Other than that I am just waiting for Jenna to pop out Jax so we can all start playing with him. Even though he will be the snore of the party for a couple weeks:) Here are some pics of Taylor in the sprinkler:)

I need a break!!!

I have been so completely exhausted. I went to bed at 8 last night and did not get up until the kids woke me up. I have had a really bad stomach ache all day and Brecken wants me to hold him all day. Figures. Right as I was sprinting to the bathroom Taylor was goofing off as usual and....hold on....sorry...another fun bathroom run. Anyways she slipped and fell and the way her ankle was twisted I almost thought it was broken. Please God do not let me get sick. Well I just put Taylor down and Brecken is eating so I am going to see if he will lay down too so I can lay down. Let us hope that something good comes of this and I at least lose some weight.

9 years!!

Yep. Nine years ago Doug took me in his arms and kissed me for the first time. Sounds romantic huh? Well it was more like he kind of tried to tackle me for the basketball and while I was trying to beat him off he kissed me and ran. Yes he says he did not run but he fibs. He did. Back in the day when we were 17 years old and now 9 years later we have 2 beautiful kids and I know for me I am more in love with him now then I was then and I was smitten pretty good:) I know it is not our wedding anniversary but it took me a very long long time to talk Doug into going out with me. A long long time. So today is like a victory of me winning 9 years ago and to tell Doug....I TOLD YOU THAT YOU WANTED THIS!!! HAHAHAHA!!! I love you:)

Come Home

So these last couple of days have been rough. My dad and I have separated ways again. It kind of sucks but he is really starting to do things he used to do. I feel bad but I just cannot do it again and I will not have my kids go through it. He kind of laid it on Doug too while he is gone. Nice huh? A guy who is at war and his wife who is home alone with 2 kids. Oh well if there is one thing the military has taught me it is that family does not have to be blood. I am sort of relieved. I was really starting to get a bad feeling about all that anyways. He had me so upset the other night and I was just sobbing so loudly that I am glad the kids were in bed. I can't let him do that to me and I cannot break in front of these kids. They deal with enough stuff with all the decisions Doug and I have made for their lives as Army brats.

The kids are being good but Taylor is definitely missing her daddy. I am very ready for him to be home. I love this stay at home mom gig but I like it better when it is not a single mom thing. Only 3 more monthsish. Well I am going to go and finish watering the lawn since it looks like it is going to rain...stupid weather:(

So yesterday was my baby girls 3rd birthday. It is so bittersweet to have her grow up. She is doing it way to fast but at the same time she really is growing into such a great girl who talks A LOT!! I was sad that Doug could not be here. We had a great day. We came downstairs so that she could open all her presents in which she played forever with. Then we went to lunch with her Uncle Buddy, Aunt Jenna, Auntie Marcela and Anthony. Then we went over to Dianns house and hung out with all of them so she could run around with Elise, Eli and Logan. It was a lot of fun. Later today is her party. It will be a lot of fun. I just cannot believe I have a 3 year old. Anyways I love her so much. She is my first and that is just something we will always share. She is the one who gets to be my tester child. She is strong willed and stubborn like her mommy yet kind and loving like her daddy. When I first held that girl I finally knew what I was born to do. I was born to be her mommy. She has made me look at myself in a whole different way and has brought a whole new meaning to the word love. I look at her and even on the days that I am about to loose it with her I cannot believe how incredibly blessed I am to have her. She is going to be a strong woman one day. She is beautiful in every sense of the word. I carried her under my heart for 9 months. I love you Taylor and I hope that you know that everyday of your life and that you never have to question that. I hope you always know your daddy loves you and that he does all that he does for you and that you will always be his girl. I pray that we can raise you to know how loved you are not just by your family but by your real Father. He is the one who blessed us with you and I pray to Him everyday that I am so grateful for you. None of us can ever measure up to how much He loves you...but I can sure try:) I love you baby girl and keep smiling... You bring so much to the world and it became a better place the day you were born.

Carolina summers are here!!

It is getting HOT!! So today was pretty good. I took Taylor to story time at Barnes & Nobles. She was really excited about seeing the mouse. I went and ordered her birthday cake today. Of course she got the princess cake. Got her birthday presents in the mail so that was good. I have them for friday. Not much else. I am super jealous of Marcela because Anthony is home on R&R. I wish my husband was home. Only a couple more months. I am really excited because Jenna should be having Jax soon. Can't wait to meet the scrub. Anyways I have been doing my Wii workout and I feel good. School is done for the summer...YAY!! The kids are in bed so I am going to go watch the rest of my show and maybe go read a little. Adios!

My babies are all getting to big!!

So Brecken is 4 months now. I gave him some cereal and started him on baby food. Holy cow that kid was LOVING it. He ate the whole thing and still breastfed. Taylor never ate a whole thing. I am totally exhausted. Brecken has been getting up at night again to eat. The doc said it is because just breastmilk is not doing it anymore so he gets the cereal, breast milk and a bottle. My little oinker:) I got my labs back. The mole under my boob was just that...a mole. The one on my nose was a benign fibroid. Very interesting. Other than that there has not been a lot going on. Just trying to get through the days until Doug gets home:)

Another day in paradise

Okay so maybe not paradise...so today we pretty much sat and did nothing. These are the days that I miss Doug the most. Just being able to sit with him and the kids and do nothing. For the short 10 days we did have we would all get up in our bed and watch cartoons on that one or two saturday mornings. Not to say that Doug and I were not a family before we had the kids but I really feel like a family now. Even when we just had Taylor it did not feel like a family family. It feels like we have a family with Taylor and Brecken. I just love my kids so much it hurts sometimes. Doug too. People tell me things about their husbands and it just makes me feel all that much more blessed to have mine. He really is one of a kind. I cannot wait until he gets home. I am so excited about how our lives are going.

Our yard is getting some more stuff done on it tomorrow. I am really excited about that because it will look more finished. I need to finish painting the trim in the kitchen someday. I went over to Jennas house for dinner and saw her blue tape up and didn't feel bad that I still have mine up. I am starting a trend:)

Taylor told me today that daddy was her hero. That was cute. She misses him a lot. I don't think I have ever seen a girl love her daddy more than she loves him. Well I have a ton of stuff to do tomorrow and Brecken is crying.