So today I was looking forward to doing a whole lot of nothing. I got up at 5 and did my praying...only way I get through the day is if I pray first...then came down stairs and yay Doug got his extra check which I really needed since the car took some of our savings. Got that all put back. Got ready and had some coffee. Went and watered my lawn. Played Wii with Taylor. We did some yoga which surprisingly she is very good at. Then we played other games. Then I got a message telling me that I was supposed to go to the Dogwood Festival with Margret which I totally forgot. Then another message saying I was supposed to go to Joes baby shower. Yeah...well I told Margret that I already said I was going to this party so I am trying to get out there. I wasn't going to go to either but they are going to have a kiddie pool and roast a pig on a bonfire and fireworks so I figured Taylor would really have fun. So I actually need to get around to go. Oh yeah and we have decided pretty much that we are just going to have like 10 kids and home school. That way they all get the social from each other and we never have to send them to a public school. I know...genius!

So not a whole lot going on. I am sitting here trying to figure out bills...yay...fun. We want to try and get the car paid off before Doug gets home. I still owe Dougs parents money. I have got to send some off this check. My Jeep went in for more work which cost $500. Can't really complain since it was pretty much a free car. I am just rolling this whole school thing in my head. I don't really want Taylor to go to a public school out here. They are so bad. I don't really want to home school her. I think she needs the interaction of other kids. I need time away:) Still have 2 years to figure that out. So I do not know if anybody watches Oprah but I turned it on the other day thinking the Columbine thing was on and nope. They were talking about child porn and she had asked the woman to go into detail about what was on a video. I could not turn it off fast enough. I heard a little bit of it and it was about a grown man and a girl about Taylors age. I was in tears and actually got physically sick. I was so sick that Oprah would even put that on. She had said that people should know about this so we could stop it which I agree but I did not think they needed to go in detail on what people were watching. I was just so enraged at it. I still am. It was so sick. I had nightmares. Anyways enough about that. Just sick that a grown man or anybody could ever do that to a child. I will not watch Oprah again ever.

Yuck

Feel like crapola today. Woke up at 4 to feed Brecken. Then when my alarm went off I could barely get up I was so sore and my nose and ears hurt. Taylor came in and I just put on the TV for her and fell back asleep. I woke up to her and Brecken laughing in his room. She was entertaining him which was nice. I could barely sit up to feed him again because of how sore I am. I laughed at the thought of getting up to go to church and trying to haul him in there. At least Taylor can walk. I hate having a cold. Luckily it is just a bad cold and not the flu or anything. Thank God. I cannot handle being sick for more than a day. I have too many things to do. Well I had some landscaping done. It looks awesome!! I also had some moles removed...from my body...not my lawn...and that hurt. My nose still hurts from the needle...not so much them removing it and there is a huge hole underneath my boob from that big one. He wasn't worried about them but he is getting them tested anyways. I am not worried but you always have that sort of "what if" thing going through your mind. Now I will just have a big nice scare under my boob. Speaking of boobs, I miss Doug. Brecken is doing so many things and I am just so bummed out that he is missing it but I am so stoked that he gets to see all the stuff that he missed with Taylor. She asked for him this morning and said she missed him. Still breaks my heart. It has been a hard last couple of days. The good news is Doug found out he should be home around his birthday. Not too much longer. I can't wait to get this family back together for the little time we can before he goes again. This is the 3rd time we have been apart for more than 6 months at a time. I am just completely exhausted and I am actually surprised my body has not been more run down than this. Yay!! Anyways here are the pics of the house.

Oh fun day...

So today I had the guy show up to install my screen doors..yay...and another guy to install our range hood...fun...then it rained all day so the guy who was supposed to mow my lawn couldn't do it. I had to run out to the stores and get some stuff and I found some cute lamps that I really liked so I got 2 at $70 a piece. Came home and spent an hour with Brecken crying at me putting them together and they don't work...I am taking them back and getting my money back. I also got a cute new little coffee maker. The other one was way to big. I had to hurry and clean upstairs so I could put the kids to bed. I just need to vacuum stairs and office and cleam all the bathrooms and the kitchen...just....hahahaha. I am so tired. I just feel like I am doing things all day long and I do not sit at all and at the end of the day I feel like I have done nothing. Well tomorrow is payday for everybody else so I am sitting my pretty butt here and doing nothing since people are crazy on payday. I miss Doug. I just do not want to be a single parent anymore. Taylor has been calling me mama lately. Kind of weird. I don't know where she picked that up. Well I am going to sit here and listen to some worship music to calm myself down and then go to bed. Night.

Love it!

Yay!! We paid off more debt today!! I love it!! So the kids are being really good and giving me a couple minutes to write. We had a lot of fun yesterday for Easter. Poor Taylor got all bit up while finding Easter eggs so I was up with her most of the night putting stuff on her bites. I hate that too. She looked really cute in her dress. Brecken looked very handsome in his overalls. Today is a rainy day so I am sitting doing nothing which I have not really done. I feel like I am soo busy all the time. I should be doing homework. I am not doing so great in my class. Well that is all I can think of for now. Laterz!