Monday, April 23, 2012

Crock Pot Queso

I found this on Pinterest!  It turned out really good!  I was a little nervous about some of the ingredients but it did turn out really good!

Ingredients

  • 32 oz Velveeta
  • 1 bar cream cheese
  • 1 can Rotel
  • 1 can Cream of Mushroom Soup
  • 1 pound of ground meat (I had left over taco hamburger)
Throw in a crock pot.  Set to high and let it cook for about an hour:)  Easy and yummy:)

Monday, April 16, 2012

Brecken and His Brother

So today I took Brecken to therapy while my friend Gerti watched Bailey and Taylor was in school.  I like Mondays because it is Brecken and mommy time.  So we went to his therapies and then went to the mall to shop a little and eat lunch.  We went to Old Navy and got him a couple shirts and then headed over to Chick-Fil-A.  Of course he loves that place.  We usually take his wheelchair in to malls since it is a lot of walking.  Especially after therapy since he is pretty tired and walking like he had one too many drinks.  So we are in eating our lunch and he sees a group of kids there.  Some in wheelchairs.  Some have Down Syndrome.  Some have walkers.  He points to a boy who has a mohawk and tells me he wants one.  He thinks he looks cool.  Then he names each one of the kids saying if they are boy or girl.  He has been really liking that he can tell the difference between boys and girls now.  He of course is signing all of this to me and looks at me and points to my belly and says boy.  I tell him yep.  It is a boy.  Then he looks at me and points to my belly and then points to his wheelchair.  He makes this noise when he is asking questions.  Kind of like a grunt in question form so I know he is asking me a question.  He again points to my belly.  Points to his chair and then says boy.  He looks at me and signs baby boy need chair like mine?  This question totally shocks me and I can feel my eyes start to water up instantly.  All of a sudden it hits me like a ton of bricks that he is wondering if since we are having a boy if he is going to be like him.  I never even think that he is on this level of thinking that of course the girls do not need chairs or leg braces.  They are girls....but his brother will be just like him right?  Plus it totally slips my mind that his dad and I have been talking it up how he will have another boy in the house just like him.  Not connecting that he thinks JUST like him.  Then of course the answers start flying to my mind.  My first thought is "I hope not".  Then I instantly feel horrible that I had even thought that.  Within seconds I pull off my mom smile and look at him and tell him that probably not.  He is my only special little man with his own wheels.  He smiles and starts eating his nuggets again.  I look away trying to choke back tears thinking "ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!  How did I not see that one coming!?!?!" 

I knew there would be a lot of questions concerning why he was different.  I also knew he was getting to that age where he was noticing he was different.  He has not said a whole lot since he goes to school with other kids in wheelchairs and walkers and leg braces.  There is a little boy in his class who is in a wheelchair full time.  A little girl named Alison who has leg braces and uses a walker full time.  Brecken is probably the 3rd on that list with his speaking machine and leg braces.  He never takes his wheelchair.  The other kids are more internal differences like Autism.  So he is around different kids all the time.  Of course at therapy he is around other kids who are dealing with Cerebral Palsy and other handicaps so again he is around kids like himself.  So really he has not been asking very much on his differences.

So this question just threw me off and really made me see that he was thinking this baby would be like him.  I know once he sees the baby and how tiny he is he will realize he has a long way to go before he is walking and talking.  By the time the baby is old enough to do any of this we can really explain it to him.

I just wanted to share this because I know I have a couple people with kids younger then Brecken with handicaps that read this blog and I know I am always reading blogs of moms who have kids in the same situation that Brecken is in and I like the info on what to expect.  What questions the kids may have as they grow.  That sort of stuff.

The rest of the day I really enjoyed with my son.  We always have fun together and I am really loving that I can spend some 1 on 1 time with him.  He is such an amazing kid and I love that I have all my kids the way they are.  They each are so unique and really are making each other better people.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Thoughts of an Army Wife

It sounds like an adventure!  Like an amazing dream!!
He asked her to marry him and to see what there is to be seen.
She is excited to leave and start their life together on the go!
The Army can make this all happen....they can make it so.
He leaves after their vows to go to training.
Boot camp, AIT and then jumping out of planes.
FINALLY after 6 months of training they are moved to start up their life.
It is official..she is an Army wife.
Once there he starts training again.
Gone at 5 in the morning to 7 at night.  She starts to feel the loneliness setting in.
After another 6 months of long hours and being alone.
He finishes training....on to real their real home!
2 years after their wedding they welcome their first child.
She is amazing.  She loves this mommy thing!
9 months later he is called to go.
She knows that being married to a soldier, duty always comes first.
He does not mean to put her 2nd but this is what they signed up for.
10 months later he shows back up on their door.
Their baby girl is now almost 2.
They decide to buy a house since they will be staying here.
Then another is born!  It's a little brother:)
10 days later he has to say good bye.
Another day in the military life.
As they say good bye she tries to tell herself she can do this.
She has 2 beautiful kids and has made many friends.
He will soon be home again.
He comes home when his son is 8 months old.
The kids love their daddy and in his arms they fold. 
5 months later they call him to go again.
His son has just turned 1.
As they all say good bye for the 3rd time she does not cry.
She can't.  She has 2 kids who need her now and she knows there is another one in her belly who needs her to be strong.
She tries to hold it together when they come to her about her son and tell her there is something wrong.
How do you tell your husband this while he is gone?
With support of her friends she finally lets him know.
They make it through this over a phone.
She survives until just before their 3rd is born.
Luckily he makes it home.
He is there to see her come into this world.
A little sister....a beautiful girl:)
He decides he wants to take another route.
He wants to stay in the Army for his son....to give him all he needs.
They pack up and move.  He leaves to train again.
Only 6 months then we don't have to again.
Once they finally move she starts to realize what "adventure" she signed up for.
After 8 years realizing this is how it would be.
Moving, making friends just to leave.
Making her kids do the same
and telling them as long as they had each other they would be okay.
Sitting here now with another on the way.
Wondering if this was the adventure she had really signed up for.
Praying that there is another way....to provide a life for her kids and still have him home.
In her prayers she hears Him say....I need you here.  I need you to stay.
Your family is meant to stand and fight.
 I know sometimes it hurts.  I know sometimes you cry.
I hear you...I hear your kids.  I chose you all to stand up and be strong.
You have no idea the impact you will have in the long run.
Your family will make it.  As long as you trust in Me.
Know I have you here for a reason....you will see;)

She stands up with tears in her eyes.
She knows He is right and this is their life.
They were chosen to take this on and now all she can do is be strong.
Knowing she has so many that stand with her.
Knowing that there is something about us military women that no civilian could ever understand.
A whole different way to stand by your man.
Yes it is hard and yes we want to give up....until we have that someone tell us thank you.
Thank you for taking on what so many said no to.
You walk a little bit taller when you know
you are part of that 1% that fights for families to get what you don't.
Never having to leave their families sides for months at a time.
You sometimes wish you had that but realize....
this is what your family was chosen to do.
It may not be easy but they know that too. 
Being an Army wife is reward in itself
One day we will be able to stay in one place
Until then we will stand with a smile on our face
Stand and be proud of what you all do
There is no way this life is possible....without you:)