Almost 6 weeks and feeling it :(

Okay so I will be 6 weeks on thursday already. Yay! I just really want the first trimester to go fast. I am so nauseated it is nauseating. It is an all day and all night thing. First I am nauseated because I am hungry and then I feel good when I am eating and then about 10 minutes after eating I am trying to keep it down. I am so completely exhausted. I sleep all the time which is possible right now because Doug is off for three weeks. I am dreading him leaving. My body feels like I have been hit by a truck. My hips are popping out all the time already. My ankles are so sore. Man it came faster with Brecken but this is crazy fast. Only 6 freakin weeks. I am trying to suck in all the time. People do not ask but I would be embarrassed if someone over heard me talking about it and asked how far along I was and I said only 6 weeks. I am so bloated. I am losing weight but I feel like a lard. I did however buy some awesome jeans where the pregnancy band goes up to your ears! They are nice :) My boobs ache :( Okay I am done. Other than that I feel great:) We are going to go in soon and check out what a mini van will run us and what to shoot for in a down payment.

Well I am very excited about this baby as much as it is hurting me now. Soon. I am ready to be out of the first trimester. The first is always my worst. I would rather be a hippo in my third. Well that's all for now:)

I am so excited and scared out of my mind

Yeah so I am excited about this baby. Do not get me wrong. I want this baby and Doug and I are very excited to welcome him/her into our family. On the other side of the coin, I am scared out of my mind. Doug took over everything when I was pregnant. I usually am so sick at the beginning and then so huge at the end that I cannot do much. Doug deploys in January so he will be here most of my first trimester which will be awesome. I am very grateful for that. Plus the kids will still have school so I can do my running around while they are there. I am actually considering putting Brecken in an extra day to get more done but we will see. He will hopefully be back in July so he will be able to help me out in the last couple of weeks. I still get really scared though. Like almost in tears scared and I know I am all hormonal and emotional but I hate feeling like this. I know many woman have done this which makes me feel better and I know I have support from a bunch of friends and that I will never truly be alone. I just keep praying to God and telling Him I am going to need Him more then ever this next year. Lol...maybe that is why He let us get pregnant. I am even more comforted that I have my BFF Forever to help me through this. She always knows how to get me back into reality. So yeah...totally loving this new baby but very scared.

Another weird thing is all the things that are happening. When we got pregnant for the second time, it was right after Courtney had died. It was the same year that Taylor was born. We found out in December and lost the baby a week later. My dad died this year. Brecken was born this year and we found out in December. I know God has it in His hands. Just a little weird. I am praying we never ever have to go through a miscarriage again.

Anyways God is good and I believe we will have this baby. I have 2 beautiful babies now and I am very content with my life and will praise Him no matter what. His plan is the best plan and I will chase after Him forever.

Pregnant....again!

Yep. Bad news and good news this month. My dad passed away November 22nd. Still running my feelings about that through my head. We did not have a good relationship.

Good news!! Baby #4 is on it's way. Sadly we lost baby #2 December 15, 2006. Pray really hard that this baby thrives. I am not worried for it is all in the Lords hands!

A little nervous because I will be pregnant with 2 kids while Doug is deployed but I knew what I was getting myself into and I have awesome friends who can help every step of the way!! I am blessed:) Plus he SHOULD be back for the birth. Yay Army wives!! Anyways that is it.