Memorial Day!!

Yes a day early but I never know when I am going to get a free minute to write. So Happy Memorial Day to everybody!! Remember why you get this three day weekend. I want to thank all the soldiers that have died for our freedoms and given their lives so we can enjoy ours. There is a special place in heaven for them.
We will be spending the weekend as a family minus one. I am sad that Doug will not be here but excited to spend the weekend doing NOTHING with my kids but enjoying them. It has been a while since we have not had to be anywhere. I am 29 weeks pregnant and feeling pretty good!! Brecken and I got whatever my mom had but luckily Taylor escaped without it. Brecken is feeling better other than trying to bust those molars out. I still am a little iffy but I am feeling better then a couple days ago. I cleaned downstairs today to try to get all the sicky germs out and it is nice to have a clean downstairs. With being big and having the kids home all the time without school, cleaning may be a rarity. I passed my 3 hour GTT!! Yay!! Other than that just enjoying being me and loving my kids and getting really excited that Doug will be home soon enough!! Then this little girl will be out to love on. Plus we are looking to make some changes in our lives. Can't say much now but I am really excited for this next chapter in our lives!!

Third Trimester!!

Yes! I am in the last trimester!! It is hard to believe that I am already 28 weeks. Although this pregnancy did not go as fast as Breckens but I think that was because I knew Doug was leaving so I was okay staying pregnant with him. Although he is a lot cuter on the outside:) Anyways Bailey is starting to get to the point where instead of kicks and punches it is rolling over and knocking the air out of me. She is the mover out of all three kids so far! She is all over the place a lot more then the other 2 were and she moves for longer periods of time. Brecken and Taylor would wear out after about 20 minutes. This girl goes for about an hour and a half. So the next couple weeks are going to be full of fun stuff for baby. We should be making my c-section appointment in the next month or so...scheduling it not actually doing it. I will be having a diaper shower too. I also did my GTT and I am hoping I pass so I do not have to go to the 3 hour one. I am going to be researching birth controls extensively! I really do not like the side effects of most of them and my mom and grandma had uterine fibroids so that cuts out all the ones that have fibroids as a side effect which is most. Doug and I have discussed it and if we show up pregnant because of a failed birth control, we are very okay with that. We want more children and know God is in control whether we try or not. However that being said. I need my body back for a couple years. I am exhausted and sore and yeah....I need a minute to catch my breathe. I have loved having all my kids but being pregnant is getting kind of old. If all goes according to plan we will let it go again when Bailey is around 2. This 19 months apart is way too hard. It may be for some people but I don't think it is for me. I am liking the 2 years apart thing. So anyways yay!! Bailey is growing and I am falling in love with her already. I am not sure if moms can relate but having Taylor and Brecken was so surreal and I could not see us having one kid much less two that it took me a while to get the idea down about being a mommy. I don't want to say I was not in love with them right away but more in love with the idea of them I guess. I know...that all came out wrong because how could you not totally fall in love with them and I am wholly in love with them now. Bailey is just not as surreal to me. I could see us having her and her being in our family. Maybe it is because I just had Brecken not too long before we got pregnant with Bailey. Anyways babble babble. I cannot wait until this girl joins our family! A family of five....who woulda thunk. Plus Doug will be home for a while too!!
Now on to Doug. Yes he should be here in the very most of the most of the mostes....in 12 weeks. That is when Bailey is due so he should be here for that. I am really excited to have him home. The kids miss him and I miss him and we have not seen each other a whole lot in the last couple years. He is going through some options to see what he can do that will keep him here for at least 2 years if not more. We will see. I would love for him to see Bailey do some of the firsts that he has missed with Taylor and Brecken.
Anyways I feel good so far!! The third trimester is my favorite with Bailey! The only thing I have had problems with is breathing. Better then how bad I hurt the first and second trimester. I am so excited for these months to fly by!!

27 and 27!

I am 27 weeks pregnant and 27 years old! Yeah I am easily entertained. So today I turned the big 27. I feel smarter and more mature. Yeah....well I do feel bigger anyways. Only 3 more years until...well we will not talk about that. I took the kids to school and tried to come home and relax but I am nesting so bad!! I was so antsy and cleaned and did laundry instead. Tonight Taylor has her last dance class. They only have a week and a half of school left. I am sad that I will not have those mornings to grocery shop or run errands but I am really looking forward to relaxing and just playing with the kids at the same time. After they get out of school it should only be about 6 weeks before Doug gets home :) My mom is coming out for Taylors dance recital this weekend so that will be nice to have some help for a couple days. Anyways Happy Birthday to me!! I get more brilliant every year!!

Taylors Birthday Party!!

So yesterday we had Taylors birthday party and I thought it turned out pretty good for pulling it together on my own while prego with 2 little ones! Although I do need to give some credit to Jess. She helped out:) I am super bummed we had to have another birthday party without daddy but hopefully this will be the last one he misses for a while. Taylor said it was the best birthday party ever and that made me feel really great about it. I always feel a little insufficient when daddy is not here. Anyways she got a bunch of great (and noisy) gifts. Of course the noisy ones are her favorite. The cake turned out pretty good although there was like an inch of frosting on top. We got some good pictures and I had enough food left over for today so i do not have to cook! Always a plus. It really was a great day and I enjoyed it a lot too. Thanks to everybody who came! I cannot believe I have a 4 year old now. She has grown so much and I love her more everyday. I cannot wait to see her with a little sister. I already know she is awesome with a little brother. I love that girl!!

Taylor Jordan Levy

4 years ago on Mothers Day (May 14th) I went into the hospital knowing I would hold my baby girl soon. After 16 hours of labor and no Taylor in sight (and no working drugs) we decided to have a c-section. After another couple hours and a very rough c-section I held the most beautiful little girl in my arms. She had her daddys eyes and her mamas nose. I was then that I knew exactly why God had put me on this earth and what I was born to do. I was here to be her mommy and to love her with all I had and more. I knew then that my life was going to turn upside down and any other way that it could. To share something like Taylor with my husband also put us on a whole new level as husband and wife. We were connected in a way that only she and her siblings could connect us. We were now mommy and daddy and not just Jen and Doug. She is the 2nd person in my life I have fallen in love with. Taylor you are so beautiful inside and out and your spirit is one of a kind. You truly know how to light up a room. Your personality shines and makes others love you from the moment they meet you. I love you so incredibly much and I wish I could explain the love I feel for you but I know you will not understand until you hold your own daughter in your arms for the very first time. I know many mothers tell their kids that they hope they have a kid just like them sometimes but Taylor, this would be a blessing for you if you ever got to experience the joy of having a daughter like you. I love you and pray that you understand forever how incredibly special you are. I love you baby girl and happy 4th birthday.

For anybody who has ever questioned if there is a God, I can tell you I see the proof every single day that I have with my children. There is no doubt in my mind that something so precious is from God whom loves us so much. He would have to love me a ton to bless me with these little blessings in which I do not deserve.

27 weeks!

Yes I am a week away from my third trimester. As of right now I feel pretty good. My allergies are flaring back up which kind of stinks. Poor Brecken has his allergies going crazy too. Taylor is a lucky little snot. She has not had them. Other than that I am just doing the uncomfortableness of being so big but I would much rather do this then the first trimester stuff. All is quiet in my house right now which is nice. Jessica took Taylor to the park with Josiah while I stayed here for Breckens speech therapy and now he is down for a nap. That girl is a blessing being that she is way more super pregnant then me! It has been a rough couple days emotionally and her and a couple other girls have been my rocks. I am so blessed to have them. One of them is moving and that totally sucks. Army life right? Ugh. Anyways having them while Doug is gone has been God showing me grace because I do not deserve them. Doug will be home soon though and hopefully soon after this emotional and hormonal roller coaster will be over after he gets here!! This little Bailey girl is making me weeping and sappy. Anyways my little girl is turning 4 this Saturday and I have been weepy over that too. She keeps telling me she has to grow up and cannot be my baby anymore which makes me cry more. I told her no matter how big she get, she is my little girl always. I will post pics of her birthday party later this weekend!!

P-O-T-T-Y

So I was in the shower and Taylor came in to ask me if she could use my potty. I said no because Brecken was in there and I did not want him getting in there. So of course Taylor decides to not listen. She goes potty and all of a sudden I hear splashing. I look out and Brecken is playing in the potty that she had just peed in. So I grab him and strip him down to put him in the shower with me. Taylor is looking at me like I am going to get her. So I have Brecken screaming in the shower with me and Taylor crying outside the shower. AAAAHHHHH!!!! Finally get him clean and out. He just curled up in his towel and laid there until I got ready. Taylor got disciplined and told that is why we do not disobey mommy. I really do know what I am talking about. Now it is 8 a.m. and I am completely exhausted. Doug needs to come home NOW!!!

26 weeks and standing!!

Yeah I am 26 weeks but Brecken is standing. Not so much me. Brecken has been able to get into a standing position without hanging on to anything! Just straight up from the floor. Although I have only seen him do this a couple times and he still prefers hanging on to something. I prefer to hang on to something too so I will not hold that against him. He has also popped his top molars. This however has not been so fun. The poor kid is in pain when he eats so I have to drug him before he can get food in his mouth. Poor kid. Well Bailey is 26 weeks and wakes me up at 3:30 every morning to remind me she is still there. Brecken and Taylor used to kick me for about 20 minutes and then fall back asleep. Not Bailey. She goes for an hour and a half of really hard kicking. I sit there thinking how is this girl not tired? I am. By the time she stops kicking I have about 20 minutes before I have to get up. So I have been getting up at 3:30 the last couple of days but that's okay because I pass out at 8 every night. All in all she looked good yesterday at her appointment. Well sounded good. I an so ready to be holding this girl. 13 more weeks!!